Super Not Cool!

Drivin' ta work... Monday, I get to work, so it's official, we are now NCO. RMA, no more. This is bad, this is very bad. I require medication, expensive medication, and because of my back I am on even more meds. My doc gave a Rx that I picked up Friday, but the pharmacy didn't have all of the pills, yet I paid for all of them. Had I been paying attention I would have seen it was the wrong med, so I called him, had a new Rx sent in, but guess what! it was after my ins. terminated! And... I had already told the pharmacy to refund the 30 pills and just bill for the 10 I had and I would take the new pills. THEY CAN'T DO THAT! I HAVE NO old INSURANCE, NOR NO new INSURANCE CARDS!!! I am so pissed off! I am out of my pain relieving medicating now. I'm gonna talk with the new HR by phone, since we no longer have HR at my office. This sux!

I was really busy all day, connsiderig my step-father is ex-Marine, my aunt and uncle are ex-military and knew people in the South Tower, my step-uncle is ex-Airforce, my step-sister and her husband are military, my sister's husband is a Marine, my step-cousin is Spec-Ops Marine and also my Grandfather served in WWII. I was with family all day and so this is delayed.

In remberence of those who gave so much September 11th, 2001.

"In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could not understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the lily stems to the top of the water. They promised each other that the next one who was called to make the upward climb would return and tell what had happened to him. Soon one of them felt an urgent impulse to seek the surface; he rested himself on the top of a lily pad and went through a glorious transformation which made him a dragonfly with beautiful wings. In vain he tried to keep his promise. Flying back and forth over the pond, he peered down at his friends below. Then he realized that even if they could see him they would not recognize such a radiant creature as one of their number.
The fact that we cannot see our friends or communicate with them after the transformation which we call death is no proof that they cease to exist."
by Walter Dudley Cavert, Remember Now © 1944, 1971

Sunrise-6am

What a beautiful image :-) (Minneapolis, taken by Me 9/2/2005 @ 6:00 am) ... an amoretto sunrise, and noone to share it with. :-(

Special Delivery

Last night/morning was the best night ever. So... as some of you know, I've been trying to get my ex-girlfriend back. It's a long story... (SUMMARY: We were together young, I waited till she was 18 before anything happened, but I also broke it off 2 times with her. She was also on lots of meds, hmm, funny how that relates to me all too often. So she wanted to get away from everyone in her life and joined up, Army. Moved to Germany and has been there 2 years. I thought I was over her, but much to my best friends disappointment, I wasn't. Then she came home for X-mas, refused to see me. And then got pregnant, and came home to put her baby for adoption, again refused to see me. Then tells me she is getting married. So how am I supposed to take that? NE way, that was about 3 weeks ago) Well, I have decided to try to move on. Beacuse, one, it will be good for me, and two, she really pissed me off this morning. She said I should "fuck off", I said "Gladly! Its better the fucking you!" And today (9/9/05) is her 21st birthday... and I was definately not planning to wish her well, even before this transpired. I hope she leaves me alone. That would rock, once and for all, DONE! Work went ok, I was so tired all day from trying to maintain composure yesterday. But all is good now, the Doc gave me more drugs! OH!, the best part of today... when I got home I had a package. I have been waiting for this to arrive for like a week. I got my new K's! It's about damn time! Classic K-Swiss with a Navy stripe to the heal. They are awesome! I'm so psyched, could be the 20oz coffee from Caribou, but whatever! Yo!, "Where you at?!"

Moving on...

I got to work today at 11 am, I was late. But it's ok, I have an excuse, my back. It was really acting up today, feels like you've been walking all day, and touching my toes is early impossible, it burns right in the very low back. So that was fun getting ready to work today. When I got there my boss was cleaning ogg another desk today, that's 3 this week alone! And 3 other people in my office have found other employment. One such person is my friend Jevaiya, she's going to work at CitiBank Financial... whoot! More collecting! And more $$$!!! Her last day is Friday the 16th, I'm gonna miss her at work, but we still have outside of work, just gonna need more of it! So, naturally, I'm thinking it's time for me to move also... but where... Target Financial? BlueCross Financial? or should I go to CitiBank also? Target is hiring $11.75 to start, but I have experiance, they pay more for that. And BC is $12.50, but no increase, and CitiBank is $13.50... so i dont know.Aside from all that... my 2nd job is closing at 7pm now, everynight!!! No more hours!!! This is going to hurt the Funny Money bucket, Bi-atch!

What's the deal?

What is the problem with women? Why are there so many on heavy medications? Today at my second job, I got a tongue lassing from my boss because this girl I work with, who is certifiable and on public aid for her condition, freaked out in front of a new employee. She is the trainer and my boss sat the newbie with me for a minute or so because she was not at her desk when the newbie had arrived to work. So this new woman thought the crazy was very unprofessional and told my boss she thought so. Well, because this girl IS crazy and we can't ever get along, my boss had to talk to both of us together and let us know something was said, mainly to help this girl understand she can't react to every little issue. I returned to my station and sat for a while, I was a lil pissed, and later on, my boss came up and quietly said to me, "You did nothing wrong." to which I said, "I know". She said that everything was ok, not to worry. I just don’t understand why so many women are so messed up in the head. It's crazy, literally. Anyway, I got to leave work early, 7pm, so that was cool, I'm home now, just relaxing.

Watch that first step, that's a chainsaw there!

HELLO WORLD!

So this is the Blog Space? I've been wanting to keep one going so we'll see how this goes. Hopefully better than this guys day... I want lots of comments, mmk?

Later every body!

What's "worth" it?

So here's the thing I'm wondering... I can never find a good girl who's worth what I think she should be worth. By that I don't mean "worth" as in monatary value, but rather personal worth; time, energy, emotion, and devotion. I'm always being shut out from ever having a chance to see what's worth it. Could it be that I question everything? (emotional scaring) Or is it something physical? (that's fixable) What disqualifies a guy from getting a chance to prove his worth to you?